Welcome to the real world she said to me condescendingly....

so spring break was so great....all of my favorite things: meeting new people, ridiculously long road trips, car problems, oodles of manual labor and volunteering, the ocean, exploring.

seriously amazing. until we hit the 20 minute mark where we knew it was back to the real world. and I hate to break it to ya: the real world is no fun. at all. ever.

I don't know. Its stress period for sure esp. for the cool college cats. Finals are a month-ish away....I have to schedule classes that I don't even have time to pick out. I have a major project about every day until finals. Plus work, plus family/outside obligations, plus ghosts of the past trying to randomly reconnect.........................my brain is going into a panic just listing it....its starting to have an anxiety attack that I'm even taking 10 minutes to type this out instead of studying/plotting/committing to the rest of my life right now.

Its a wonder that I don't' spontaneously explode before my birthday this year. I try to go for a run every night. do yoga. read before bed. catch the news. hell i'd love to watch a movie but i don't have two free hours of time. watching the news has become me flipping it on and falling asleep before the first story finishes for yoga is one pose until i remember something that needs to be done and have to abandon my supposed escape from the world.

I'm also insanely sick of hearing : well your not even in the real world yet brace yourself. F that. If the real world is wilder/less fun that this count me out. I've gotta find a job where I can be a lazy betch like celebrities but actually accomplish something with my life like I want to.

idk what the h to do? How do you do this thing called life? Is this just my little panic for the semester or am I starting to get in over my head?

I hope it is another portion of my quarter life crisis. Because that would mean it has an end. sigh.


On a positive note congratulations to my fabulous aunt who just celebrated her five years cancer free!!!!!!! 62% of women diagnosed with Breast Cancer will die and she is still livin' and lovin' in remission.
Much love <3